I could write a million words recounting them but I see them so much that I just don’t have time. I’m off on a trail I had never seen before. No one like me to commune with, to MERGE with, just people “playing” and using my spiritual power like candy. Weak people using me for strength then poof, off to their stupid personal lives that they think is important. I wanted to be alone so I walked realllllllyyyyyy slooooooI HAD to be alone, I couldn’t “Christ Consciousness” love anyone then for some reason. Oh well.Īfter the ceremony, everyone was walking back to their cars to go down to the afterparty. The wedding was extremely uncomfortable for me, and was a rare recent time when my Scorpio Moon conjunct Saturn conjunct Retro 29 degree Pluto had no choice but to emit bad vibes. I’ve been going through romantic confusion and been kind of a “christ consciousness” slut lately. I liked (even loved) everyone there so it was unexplainable. At the wedding I was gradually more and more upset, just not feeling it at all, until actually outright disliking it. I kept my cool as well as possible, and kept a good vibe around me. I was at a wedding today after working extremely hard in the kitchen. Skanyonhsa asks us only to allow our Warrior to walk free. It is only our own fear and judgement that confines us. We have always had one foot in the wilderness, one foot in the garden. It is only our fear that requires us to confine our own strength or the strength of those around us. It is there, inside of all us, only wanting to be allowed to walk as freely as all the other qualities inside of us. Strength does not require acknowledgement or force. Skanyonhsa calls to us to walk free and tall and to be strong without having to impose our strength on the world around us. We can be Warriors without doing harm, without killing, and without losing complete control. Too often we become tame because of our fears and we lock what is natural and strong inside of a cage for fear of judgement and doing harm. Being truly alive in ourselves is finding that balance between what is wild and what is civilized. She stands tall and proud, and will call to us when we allow ourselves to become too tame and fearful. Her wildness is not to be feared or tamed. Skanyonhsa is strong and fearless and wild. Moose, Skanyonhsa, is the Warrior inside of us. It definitely ranks as one of the most intense nightmares of my life.Īny ideas what this means? I have never dreamed anything even remotely like this or of a moose before. It woke me up and I could still feel all that emotion and all that pain and it took quite a while for me to shake it and get back to bed. I can’t even describe the sound, was unlike anything I’ve ever heard and not moose-like or even animal like really…it was like a painful scared human scream and animal scream mixed together on such an intense level that it ripped right through your everything – if that makes sense. She was screaming and screaming and it got louder and louder and I tried to cover my ears but it hurt me all the way through to my core and I felt all her pain and anguish as if it was my own even though I tried to run from the scene it followed me and got louder and more intense. She was beautiful and still seemed vibrant despite the fact that she was shot and couldn’t get up and this man just started with her face skinning her without her being dead yet. I had a dream last night where a man had shot a moose and was skinning it alive. My boyfriend just watched this whole experience in my dream, I don’t remember him joining in but I slightly remember him warning me as she came into the picture. The bison never stepped in, but watched from behind the mother. I wanted her to understand I was not going to harm any of them & after a few minutes of me caressing her face & neck she began to understand & she partially surrendered herself to me as her baby had. She nudged very hard & pushed all her wait into me & being barely 90lbs I was able to hold all of the weight without being overbearing. She immediately came at me & I opened my arms ready to embrace her, too. I began to pet it & hug it’s face but then I noticed the mother became very protective. I was waiting at a triangular point on the side of 2 major roads, just watching the snow melt(in my dream it had snowed & I was just watching it vanish) & the baby came walking up to me. It was a mommy & a baby moose but there was a bison & that was the father. I am not 100% sure what they were but the 2 most resembled moose. I had a dream last night that I was walking around with my boyfriend after being with one of my youth leaders & we ran into moose like animals.
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